I don’t like my feelings

Hey council! 

So I’ve been through a lot over the passed year and I just feel defeated. But the thing is that my feelings are the problem. I’ve been off my rocker for months now and has people pointed out my feelings aren’t what’s up at the moment. And I’m starting to hate the fact that I do feel a lot. 

I just wish that everyone would just get off my back for a moment. And let me process how I want to process my feelings. I always let people figure out themselves and I just be there to listen when they need a friend. 

But whenever I express my emotions it always received in a negative light. And when I’m around the one person who doesn’t mind my feelings, I can’t express them because what if it becomes too much. 

Today I looked up chronic complainer because I feel like I complain too much. Well on the internet at least. But the thing is I don’t come to people with my complaints too often. I know people have problems of their own. So why should they be bothered by my problems? 

The main reason why things happened to me is because I have no money. But when I get some money I don’t want anyone to say congratulations, nothing. I’m just saving up

so I can be maybe a hermit for the rest of my life or just to live with someone that doesn’t mind me being who I am. 

A lot of thoughts are running through my mind and I honestly don’t know how to separate it all. I honestly been trying to keep myself from doing the unthinkable. 

So that’s it for tonight my council members. See you in the next meeting. 🌙

Hello again everyone!

     What is up everyone! It's your favorite otaku gal pal Midnight Maiden! Also known as Angel the midnight maiden lol! It has been years since I've touched this blog because this blog was started as an assignment for college. But now that my college life is in the past, there's so much I want to do for the future. And this is so much I want to share with you all as well. But first thing first, I've recently had Covid and I must take the time to recover in order to get back into the swing of things. But don't think for once second that I'm just sitting here doing nothing! Oh no! As usual I'm starting up my writing and making sure I finish at least one good story. 

     I have so many stories on different platforms, it's crazy lol. 

     My most recent project is for a website called Dreame. Dreame is a popular reading app that allows you to collect prizes while you read. And of course you can also become a writer for the app as well. If you want to become a writer for the app you they will direct you to a website called stary writing. There you will be able to start your writing journey and hopefully start making an earning a long the way. 

Here's the link:

starywriting

     I will explain more of my new project in the next post on the weekend. Right now I wanted to introduce myself again and hopefully this will help with my recovery from Covid. Stay safe my midnight council. And let's enjoy this midnight ride together!